Stop asking, I ain't going out!

     Friends are always bitching at me that I never want to go out anymore.  "What happened to the Greek?  The guy that used to call me on the phone every-fucking-night asking what's going on this evening?  Let's get fucked up!"  Well, first of all, Greek grew up......hahahahahaha  yeah I'm not buying that one either!  

     As stated previously, I don't like people.  I don't want to be around them anymore then I have to.  Working in retail 9 hours a day forces me to interact with them.  Whether it be employees, customers, or bosses, I want to flip the fuck out on all of them.  But I don't because I'm a pussy.  I hold in all the anger and frustration...until I get home.  I start slamming down beers and call a fellow piece of shit or two that can relate and unleash all the hatred built up from the day.  

     I'm uncomfortable being around groups of people and not being able to be myself.  I NEED to be intoxicated to function and have a good time with strangers as well as "friends."  Apparently, my "friends" and strangers alike say that I'm an asshole when I get drunk; "You're such a better person when you're sober."  NEWS FLASH:  That is who I really am!  I'm a fucking asshole!  Alcohol is the only thing that can unlock the gate holding back every real thought in my mind.  What I say to you or anyone else (most of the time, sometimes I'm just drunk) when I'm drinking beer is how I really feel.  Now, you may take it a different way then what I was thinking but that ain't my fault.  Stop being so sensitive and smile!  When I'm drinking you're getting the REAL me!  

     I'm very well aware this isn't the healthiest way to live one's life.  It's how I live mine.  Deal with it, or don't.  Just remember, your friend, brother, son, etc.,  really is a dick and there is nothing you can do about it.  Doesn't mean I don't love you, just means I can't stand everybody else!

     So guys, please, understand when I ain't interested in going out and getting fucked up with y'all.  You all are more than welcome to come over to my place and get fucked up all night long! 

     ...or until 9 o'clock, then you got to get the fuck out!

gII